I am so full of fail right now. Life is super busy with school. Every class has at least 2 group/team projects, multiple exams, tons of reading. I’m clinging on to sanity right now. Had a few breakdowns because of the stress. I had a TA job offer but had to turn it down because I felt like I didn’t have enough time to devote to work and do my ‘best’ in school. I’m glad I turned it down because I’d be even more crazy/stressed out right now if I had to work 20 hours a week on top of school demands. Blah. I knew grad school was tough but I didn’t think it would break me in the first month.

My birthday is in 10 days and I really don’t know what to think about it. I’m excited because I get stuff and I get to go home. But my sister may not be able to visit because of recent travel changes at work. I also have 2 tests and a few presentations the week after and that’s all I feel I’ll be thinking about the whole weekend. I feel like I’m turning 24 and haven’t really done anything in my life. No real job, no sign of a love life at all. I feel so lonely up here since most of the people I knew from undergrad are gone and everyone has other friends. It just gets me down sometimes that I’m getting older and feel like I’m spinning my wheels.

See? Me = fail. I’ll stop. I need to continue to work on an assignment for school. Woo.