I also made a promise to myself to weigh ONLY on Fridays,an attempt to pry myself away from weighing everyday. Anyway, I didn’t want to be depressed when I saw the number. I wasn’t. I guess what I’ve been doing has been working. It’s been so hard for me to lose weight since I went off birth control last July. And after I found out I had PCOS in March I read that it’s hard to lose weight even with medicine. Well I had been losing weight, about 7 pounds since March – compared to 0 from November to March, but it was SLOW in my opinion. So these 3 pounds were a good shock.

Anyway, that brings my total to 10 pounds since Christmas and the lowest I’ve been since October/November. It’s still about 16 pounds away from my lowest in recent history back last May. But it seems more possible to achieve that again now than it did a little while ago. I’m excited. I hope I don’t completely ruin it this weekend. I’m home right now and we’re probably going out tomorrow for Father’s Day and maybe today. Ugh. Note to self: DON’T EAT LIKE A PIG! Plus, we’re going on vacation to Florida in August after summer school ends so I want to lose about 8 more pounds before then and I honestly think that can happen. I just need to make it happen. *is positive*

Last weekend my parents and I went up to College Station to look for apartments. We ended up liking 2 of the complexes we looked at. My mom and I went back up on Wednesday to check out a ‘lived in’ apartment at one of the complexes – the one that was cheaper and closer to campus – and we liked it enough to sign a lease on it. It’s a 2/2 with plenty of space for my massive quantity of junk. I move in on May 31 – the day before session 1 starts (Eek!). I’m pretty excited. All I need now is an internship or a job to earn some money, keep me busy, and *possibly* some experience. There aren’t many Marketing-related jobs/companies around the town – being that it IS a small, college town – so I may have to work at something unrelated to my degree until an Assistantship position comes up.

In other news, the medication I’ve been taking is helping a little. As of last Friday I’ve lost around 4.5 pounds. But still no visit from Auntie Flo. It’s only been a month taking the medication and I’ve read on several web sites that it takes from 1 to over 6 months to ‘work’. I guess I’m just glad I’m losing a little bit of weight. But my problem now is that I lose it then go out to eat and gain it all back! lol. I go out and eat like it’s my last meal. It’s sad. I also need to keep myself out of our office candy jar. But that’s another story completely…

I have been working out 3 times a week but it’s been hard over the past few weeks. My dad goes with me to the gym and he’s a CPA. This time of year is rough and I’m letting him work late in lieu of working out some nights we’re scheduled to hit the gym. But hopefully after next Wednesday our schedule will get back on track.

The interview at Trinity went OK but I didn’t get in. I’m kind of bummed but it wasn’t meant to be. However, I did get into U of Houston’s MBA program and Texas A&M’s Marketing program. I’ve decided on Texas A&M. I really love it there and it would be great to spend a little more time up there for my graduate school. I have to take a statistics class during the summer session before I can start in the fall. I guess that’s OK because it won’t be too hard. Now I just have to look at apartments and try to find a job or an internship up there this summer. I’d really love to be a TA but those jobs for incoming grad students in my department won’t completely be available until the spring.

I went to the doctor a few weeks ago because I’ve been having all of these health issues – mainly not having my periods…at all. It’s been going on for years but I was on birth control and that solved the problem. I went off that in July because I had other problems. I’ve also been trying to lose weight (working out 3x a week and eating about 1200 calories a day) and not losing an ounce. Anyway, I got some blood work done and it turns out I have PCOS. It explains my issues I’ve been having. I’m on medication right now – a lower dosage for a few weeks to see if I have any problems, then the full amount after – and I hope it solves my problems.

I’ve been getting so discouraged about not losing weight and I hope this helps. I know when you work out you gain muscle at first so you don’t get much of a result on the scales at first, but that’s only for like the first few weeks, right? At some point the muscle, although it is more dense than fat, starts burning fat and taking weight off. I’m not an expert (and am probably completely in left field about this), but I should be losing at least a little bit now. I’ve been working out since January on a regular basis (3 times a week). I’ve had some slip-ups as far as eating out and all that but I get right back on my diet after. My clothes are fitting a little bit better but I guess I care too much about what the scale says.

They always say ‘Don’t give up!’ but why keep it up when nothing’s working? I would love to be back down to where I was last May (about 20-25 pounds lighter) by June but that’s nearly impossible.

If you guys have any tips, please fill me in! :-D

My 2009 resolutions:

1. Lose my weight and keep it off.
   • Starting Friday (taking tomorrow off to lounge, shut up!) I’m dieting and working out all that I can. I want to be 180-ish by May/June. If I was almost there this year, I can do it again.
2. Be more social, have more friends, possibly get a BF.
   • I need to be more soclal instead of sitting at home waiting for something to happen.
3. Read more
   • I’ve read 13 books since January. I hope to at least double that number in 2009.

   • I feel like I’m missing out on a lot by not reading so I’d like to read for fun more.

I had to go to the dentist this morning. Boo. I hate the dentist. What a way to end the year. Mom, my sister, and I also went to IKEA. My mom had to get something and I like looking at all the stuff. We’re not doing much tonight as far as festivities. Right now we’re watching ‘Elf’ on USA. It’s not really a big thing for us. We just had dinner. Pizza buffet – wonderful ‘last meal of the year’, y/y? It was good and I hardly ever have pizza so I was pleased. We usually just stay up to midnight, say ‘Happy New Year’ then sleep. Tomorrow’s ritual is eating some black-eyed peas and cabbage for good luck. I had a lot last year and it didn’t bring me much luck. So IDK how much I’ll eat this year. o_0 We’re pretty tame and I like it. But I hope one day I’ll have real, legit NYE plans.

With that said, I want to wish everyone:

I hope you guys have a wonderful and safe New Year! *hugs*

Right now I’m chillin’ on the couch watching TV with my sister and running errands around the house for her when she needs something. She’s doing pretty good so far but it’s going to be a while until she’s completely healed up.

I can’t believe there’s only a week until Christmas! It seems so crazy to think this crazy year has passed so quickly.